21 Sept 2006

a day befor the finals of one in a million

the show ive been workin on most, this year


whenever a long show ends, its like the whole year has ended.


but this time, there isnt any grand feelings about the final show

maybe because it has come one two many times


or maybe because my entire team are fed up trying to work with an inexperienced-egocentric-pitiful-HEAD,

i shant use the word leader, coz he's more of a coward than anything else,

ever prepared to blame everyone else for his short comings, except for himself.......of course.


but if i spend time writing about that aspect of the year gone by, it'll probably take another whole year to complete.


so i'll take things in a positive manner like I always do, and treat my last day working with him as the happiest day of my life, even happier than the other finals i've done!

yes nothing feels better than the taste of freedom from ur oppressors!

and on the subject of freedom, i remember talking to my lawyer-friend how we always have to fight for some small form of freedom,

there isnt any way around it really, without a fight , i guess there would be nothing to be learned or appreciated.

we are all born into this worlds as slaves, be it at the start to our parents

and later on to addictions like drugs, greed, lust etc.

(addiction comes from the word enslaved in latin, or something like that)

so i guess its everybody's duty to fight for their freedom, if they want it of course.

i never understood fighting before until now, i always wanted to be a lover, but in the end, u cant always sit in your comfort zones ignoring everything wrong that goes on around you.

its not like im all hyped out to travel to some war torn country to start some jihad and stuff,

im more concerned on the smaller scale, like fighting for your dignity, fighting for respect, fighting for your survival.

i didnt choose a business job, or some money making thing as my craft

i decided to do work that i'dlove, love meaning i wouldnt mind not getting paid much for it


but when u dont get paid much, and you still have to worry about bastards around you that dont know what they are doing......thats when we have to fight

and i love kicking ass for what is right, and just


coz in general, we malaysians are one motherfucking lazy lot

i know, coz i am one

but now im willing to FIGHT

Gong Li kills Miami Vice

Isabella.......

....whos dumb idea was that to have some chinese gal called isabella, drug-dealer, but is freakin chinese!!!

i hope it wasnt michael mann's idea, coz he's one of my idols

-but i guess everybody lets u down once in awhile


why couldnt they just get some hot latino chick or something,

i mean gong li is still hot despite her wrinkles, but when she talks english, the only way you're gonna get a hard on is by closing your ears.


terrible.......so not sexy,romantic,decent dialog-acting, whatever....

u can understand what she says, but it's like collin farrel is having a love story with a piece of talking cardboard......and yes the love story is a big part of the show,

hence....that BITCH spoiled most of the movie!


terribly disappointed, maybe coz i was so looking foward to the show,

i still like every frame of the show without gong li talking though (yeah even those where she just shuts up and looks pretty)

michael mann still delivers a realistic point of view to undercover police work (dont mind the ferrari's and shit)

im talking more about the action, all the shooting and shit, damn cold and real.

i still love all the glam of miami, dunno whether i was brainashed when i was young watching the TV series, didnt unserstand much then, but i never forgot the opening montage, all that flamingos and percussion shit.

ah, i still love it till today, and i feel the movie gives you all that, just with a harsher edge


so gong li, i forgive you, coz you still hot

its still a must watch movie

Soares to my throat

im currently down with the tonsillities

havent had it in awhile, but it's one of those infections i've been battling my whole life, especially when i was young

im just prone to tonsillities, execpt for the time i started smoking, i guess all the tar must have killed everything in the throat including all bacteria and virus.


it's a really sucky infection coz it hurts to eat, and i love eating, and having no appetite due to the pain of swallowing, really sucks, it sucks so bad i can't even suck anything without feeling all the lumps in my throat flare up.


the fever that comes along with it kindza sucks too, ive been sleeping for the last 3 days, non-stop, and i still feel sleepy, i even get the chills when the whether is like humid and hot like hell.

i take my medication and lozanges (which i never find the effectiveness in) and even try to battle it out with gargles of warm salt

my fever is getting better but my throat is still screwed up, soon i'll have to buy some honey and lime juice, apparently its good, and gonna start drinking some herbal tea, and whatever

coz im freakin irritated on my irritation!

and all i can really do now is write about it till it heals

damn you tonsils!!!!