what a forgettable year it has been,
everybody was stressed out, money was scarce
but wait a minute, there were those who got going when the toughness was getting it on
those like my pinot noir basil plant, what started out as an inch of leaf and plant is now a good 3 feet worth of hardy wild basil that stretches form the dark spots of my balcony to the ledge of warm sun.
plants are living things and as slow as they are, they still grow faster than us, faster in a good environment, and even when resources are scared they adapt and find new methods to exist. they are survivors and they will be around longer than any of us.
is this the jealousy that causes us to continually take more than what they offer us unconditionally?
or are they silently waiting for retribution, a day when their numbers are so limited, they then decide to take away the one thing that keeps us alive, oxygen.
that's human nature right at it's worse, we harm the ones that love us the most
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009
where do we go now?
staring at the cursor blinking,
fingers frozen, mind has stopped thinking
what be the point of another endless rant
that brings nothing more than a life wasted in believing
i envy the oblivious
i despise the obvious
but what am i to do, if i continue to lie in the comfort of conforming
what good things must come to an end?
what lies we tell ourselves to protect the big truths.
enough..................
fuck you i won't do what you tell me,
motherfuckerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrz
fingers frozen, mind has stopped thinking
what be the point of another endless rant
that brings nothing more than a life wasted in believing
i envy the oblivious
i despise the obvious
but what am i to do, if i continue to lie in the comfort of conforming
what good things must come to an end?
what lies we tell ourselves to protect the big truths.
enough..................
fuck you i won't do what you tell me,
motherfuckerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrz
Thursday, October 15, 2009
hello again
it's been quite awhile since my last confession
there was facebook and more focus on work, thank god im not yet a twitter addict
but now laying on my bed, shitting fluids the whole night, with titanic on star movies, i kind of remembered you my friend, the one that is always there
at least if nothing happens to google that is
i'm older, hardly any wiser, more tired's the word, make slightly a bit more cash then i used to, but not really conquering the world in my prime years.
I'm no Lewis Hamilton, no Cristiano ROnaldo, even if they are younger than me, they were of a different cut.
I'm what you could call the regular , was born a grande, but i'm hoping to be a venti.
there are a lot more worse off and there are also many having a better deal,
but as i watch Titanic yet again on cable, we are all the same when death comes a calling, it;s what you do with the cards dealt in your destiny,
i;m the king of the world........if i think i am.
there was facebook and more focus on work, thank god im not yet a twitter addict
but now laying on my bed, shitting fluids the whole night, with titanic on star movies, i kind of remembered you my friend, the one that is always there
at least if nothing happens to google that is
i'm older, hardly any wiser, more tired's the word, make slightly a bit more cash then i used to, but not really conquering the world in my prime years.
I'm no Lewis Hamilton, no Cristiano ROnaldo, even if they are younger than me, they were of a different cut.
I'm what you could call the regular , was born a grande, but i'm hoping to be a venti.
there are a lot more worse off and there are also many having a better deal,
but as i watch Titanic yet again on cable, we are all the same when death comes a calling, it;s what you do with the cards dealt in your destiny,
i;m the king of the world........if i think i am.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
just chillin
last day off. Start breakfast with half a pint of guiness. Bloggin on handphone. Responsibility is just round the corner.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
cutting edge
vanity,
it never got to me, maybe that's why i look like the scruffiest looking thang around in my late 20s. maybe it was that line princess leia used on Han on hoth, scruffy looking, hell, solo was a pretty cool guy, ppl still liked him despite his scruffy outlook.
and the longer my hair grew, it just ended up like a natural luke skywalker do, so why bother getting it styled?
needless to say, the saloon is one of my less frequent hangouts....it was more to barbers. yeah you know the type ur dad used to go to? for the real man cut, where they take a safetyless blade and try their best not to slit your throat while singing their favourite bollywood anthem.
I just came back to penang to have one of those, just RM 8 for a cut and shave....it's dirt cheap, almost the same price in vietnam.
the difference however is they do a much better job in Nam.
over here they rush it, they treat ur face like cow's skin and i end up bleeding on my way home, but up north, you can actually get some grade A cut's and they take their damn time to give you that close shave, so no blood and they'll even clean ur ears and nose if you want to......but that's something i can manage on my own.
maybe it's something the french leftover, good coffee, great bread and professional barbers. to me i think it's just good ol commie pride.
it never got to me, maybe that's why i look like the scruffiest looking thang around in my late 20s. maybe it was that line princess leia used on Han on hoth, scruffy looking, hell, solo was a pretty cool guy, ppl still liked him despite his scruffy outlook.
and the longer my hair grew, it just ended up like a natural luke skywalker do, so why bother getting it styled?
needless to say, the saloon is one of my less frequent hangouts....it was more to barbers. yeah you know the type ur dad used to go to? for the real man cut, where they take a safetyless blade and try their best not to slit your throat while singing their favourite bollywood anthem.
I just came back to penang to have one of those, just RM 8 for a cut and shave....it's dirt cheap, almost the same price in vietnam.
the difference however is they do a much better job in Nam.
over here they rush it, they treat ur face like cow's skin and i end up bleeding on my way home, but up north, you can actually get some grade A cut's and they take their damn time to give you that close shave, so no blood and they'll even clean ur ears and nose if you want to......but that's something i can manage on my own.
maybe it's something the french leftover, good coffee, great bread and professional barbers. to me i think it's just good ol commie pride.
Thursday, May 07, 2009
country road
it's more like flight path
the island heat reminds me why i left, but the cool after the sunset, reminds me where i belong
food portions are small but extra servings are always welcomed
if you see the same bus driver that picked yer up when yer was just a wee lad, still up and running, with a cigarette in his mouth.........you know yer just going to live forever
things may have changed here and there, you actually have to request that your si ham in your char kuay teow be undercooked, or else they'll murder it.
but if you can hear the waves crash on the rocks and sand, you know there's more to life than skyscrapers and starbucks
the island heat reminds me why i left, but the cool after the sunset, reminds me where i belong
food portions are small but extra servings are always welcomed
if you see the same bus driver that picked yer up when yer was just a wee lad, still up and running, with a cigarette in his mouth.........you know yer just going to live forever
things may have changed here and there, you actually have to request that your si ham in your char kuay teow be undercooked, or else they'll murder it.
but if you can hear the waves crash on the rocks and sand, you know there's more to life than skyscrapers and starbucks
more romance in rome
we going to take on the catalan giants
in our favourite european away ground
bye bye messi, it's time to give you a taste of some united pain.
in our favourite european away ground
bye bye messi, it's time to give you a taste of some united pain.
Monday, April 27, 2009
floors
the bathroom floor's dry when you're not around
how will i know that you've been up early preparing for the daily grind
the living room doesn't move, not an inch
how will i know where you've laid your head asleep or busy watching the tele
and worst of all,my bed is cold on the hottest nights
how can i dream of a better tomorrow
how will i know that you've been up early preparing for the daily grind
the living room doesn't move, not an inch
how will i know where you've laid your head asleep or busy watching the tele
and worst of all,my bed is cold on the hottest nights
how can i dream of a better tomorrow
Sunday, April 26, 2009
they sing for you
you can be tired of slaving the entire day
frustrated at everyone that throws their bullshit on you for no apparent reason
and just plain depressed at the way the world has/will turn out.
but 5 balls hitting the back of the net for the team u love,
makes everything just ok.
that's when we can put our trust back into the human race.
the best things are the simplest of pleasures.
frustrated at everyone that throws their bullshit on you for no apparent reason
and just plain depressed at the way the world has/will turn out.
but 5 balls hitting the back of the net for the team u love,
makes everything just ok.
that's when we can put our trust back into the human race.
the best things are the simplest of pleasures.
Monday, March 30, 2009
viva la vida
80.22 that's what you left me
scrapping the bottom of the bottom yet every moment seems worth it
when you restart things get clearer, life gets richer
*&^%$#
by far the best concert i've ever been to, coldplay, that little band my brother introduced to me when he came back from his working stint in Liverpool, their charismatic wave had yet to hit our shores, but once yellow got out to my ear drums......there was just no turning back.
sooner or later everybody thought chris martin was kermit on drugs, but i've always had an affinity to singers with unconventional voices, corgan, brett anderson etc.
It boils back to x-factor, you might not hit the right pitch, look the look or walk the walk, but if you can connect to millions.........there's more than meets the eye.
then they released a rush of blood, everyone thought they had gotten super soft, almost canto-popish. But i just thought it was perfection to harmonics, take everything secondary and push and repeat the harmony. the rest only warmed up with a cool video for the scientist and clocks (the song that swept america for some reason)
My personal favourite to date would be amsterdam. COz time is on your side is on your side................and truth is.....warning sign could not get out of my head for the longest of time.
sooner or later it was time for x&y.......first heard the single speed of sound.......i thought "what the hell is going on?" it was a decent track but nothing really pulled me emotionally the thing that coldplay was always good for
but when i got my hands on the album, fix you just blew me away......along with talk (thanks to some research i have to give kraftwerk some of the credit for a great song). And the rest of the songs just kept getting better and better, really loved it and still wondered how the speed of sound even fit in the album in the first place........but hell it was a damn cool video.......so you gotta love the sound.
two concerts had passed me by in singapore, they first opened for travis and came back with twisted logic......something i was all hyped up for.......but nobody was interested..........it sucks to rock alone...............plus money was always a factor.........watching anything in the island state almost feels like a rip off....they don't let you go crazy yet they make you pay so much for it.
then came viva..... i was so excited on hearing the release, i youtubed some of the first few songs......and to be honest i was left disappointed, only viva la vida seemed coldplayish and it stood out.......the rest was a different world.....violet hill was pretty ok when i heard it on the airwaves but i was still looking for a damn pull...............
that's when lost and lovers in japan saved the day. I wondered how i managed to miss youtubing it in the first place.....i only heard it when prospekts march was being talked about. it hit the spot......it revived the fanatisicm, it convinced me to splash for the concert, it was the best ever thing that has happened to my life to date, they are great performers, i couldn't even tell if anything went wrong or slightly off....coz it didn;t.
i am totally blown over and will contradict everything that points otherwise from what i'm about to say.
they are the best band ever, all their songs rock coz i'm a freakin fan.
scrapping the bottom of the bottom yet every moment seems worth it
when you restart things get clearer, life gets richer
*&^%$#
by far the best concert i've ever been to, coldplay, that little band my brother introduced to me when he came back from his working stint in Liverpool, their charismatic wave had yet to hit our shores, but once yellow got out to my ear drums......there was just no turning back.
sooner or later everybody thought chris martin was kermit on drugs, but i've always had an affinity to singers with unconventional voices, corgan, brett anderson etc.
It boils back to x-factor, you might not hit the right pitch, look the look or walk the walk, but if you can connect to millions.........there's more than meets the eye.
then they released a rush of blood, everyone thought they had gotten super soft, almost canto-popish. But i just thought it was perfection to harmonics, take everything secondary and push and repeat the harmony. the rest only warmed up with a cool video for the scientist and clocks (the song that swept america for some reason)
My personal favourite to date would be amsterdam. COz time is on your side is on your side................and truth is.....warning sign could not get out of my head for the longest of time.
sooner or later it was time for x&y.......first heard the single speed of sound.......i thought "what the hell is going on?" it was a decent track but nothing really pulled me emotionally the thing that coldplay was always good for
but when i got my hands on the album, fix you just blew me away......along with talk (thanks to some research i have to give kraftwerk some of the credit for a great song). And the rest of the songs just kept getting better and better, really loved it and still wondered how the speed of sound even fit in the album in the first place........but hell it was a damn cool video.......so you gotta love the sound.
two concerts had passed me by in singapore, they first opened for travis and came back with twisted logic......something i was all hyped up for.......but nobody was interested..........it sucks to rock alone...............plus money was always a factor.........watching anything in the island state almost feels like a rip off....they don't let you go crazy yet they make you pay so much for it.
then came viva..... i was so excited on hearing the release, i youtubed some of the first few songs......and to be honest i was left disappointed, only viva la vida seemed coldplayish and it stood out.......the rest was a different world.....violet hill was pretty ok when i heard it on the airwaves but i was still looking for a damn pull...............
that's when lost and lovers in japan saved the day. I wondered how i managed to miss youtubing it in the first place.....i only heard it when prospekts march was being talked about. it hit the spot......it revived the fanatisicm, it convinced me to splash for the concert, it was the best ever thing that has happened to my life to date, they are great performers, i couldn't even tell if anything went wrong or slightly off....coz it didn;t.
i am totally blown over and will contradict everything that points otherwise from what i'm about to say.
they are the best band ever, all their songs rock coz i'm a freakin fan.
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
ring ring
My first handphone, Nokia 2110
hand me down from my dad, it was pretty neat back in the day, the problem back then was the battery died really fast, but you could get one of those double sized battery additions, kinda like the new knight rider it transforms your car to a freakin truck.
but it was also fun navigating the menus in those days, you could remember like the menu number codes to jump to an application extra fast, and you could even extend the antennae a further 2 inches, like it made any difference.
Then came the sony erricson, nope....it was just erricson back then, T something, can't remember, another basic piece of crap, it had a flip which had no use what soever except to protect the keypad, so when it eventually broke off, it didn't make any difference, but they did have some snazzy ring tones and shit.
Got fed up after awhile with the conventional brands, soon headed to Alcatel, pretty nice and silvery, had a camera.....damn it was like the latest thing, a camera in a damn phone. Soon enough all the silver came off and it looked like a plastic piece of shit, but yet again it came with a whole other load of interesting tones but it didn't matter, using ur own mp3s was the thing.
so when i totally gave up on technology i went and got those motorolla RM150 phone, which i latter found out was the number one phone in cambodia......i loved everything about it, cheap, batt lasted forever, it had less screen space then my nokia 2110 (my first phone) can you imagine that?
I was so in love, i could drop it a million times and never gave a damn, but the relationship had to end when i couldn't save more than 200 contacts.........
that's when i went in the total opposite direction to my current babe the N95 aka swiss army phone. yup it does everything....even hangs from time to time.
but what's on the horizon? I-phones are always the rave, but it's more like a game console. i think i'll just end up a slave to a blackberry at some point
and that my life will truly be over.......i can't wait to be handphoneless
to be totally disconnected......
hand me down from my dad, it was pretty neat back in the day, the problem back then was the battery died really fast, but you could get one of those double sized battery additions, kinda like the new knight rider it transforms your car to a freakin truck.
but it was also fun navigating the menus in those days, you could remember like the menu number codes to jump to an application extra fast, and you could even extend the antennae a further 2 inches, like it made any difference.
Then came the sony erricson, nope....it was just erricson back then, T something, can't remember, another basic piece of crap, it had a flip which had no use what soever except to protect the keypad, so when it eventually broke off, it didn't make any difference, but they did have some snazzy ring tones and shit.
Got fed up after awhile with the conventional brands, soon headed to Alcatel, pretty nice and silvery, had a camera.....damn it was like the latest thing, a camera in a damn phone. Soon enough all the silver came off and it looked like a plastic piece of shit, but yet again it came with a whole other load of interesting tones but it didn't matter, using ur own mp3s was the thing.
so when i totally gave up on technology i went and got those motorolla RM150 phone, which i latter found out was the number one phone in cambodia......i loved everything about it, cheap, batt lasted forever, it had less screen space then my nokia 2110 (my first phone) can you imagine that?
I was so in love, i could drop it a million times and never gave a damn, but the relationship had to end when i couldn't save more than 200 contacts.........
that's when i went in the total opposite direction to my current babe the N95 aka swiss army phone. yup it does everything....even hangs from time to time.
but what's on the horizon? I-phones are always the rave, but it's more like a game console. i think i'll just end up a slave to a blackberry at some point
and that my life will truly be over.......i can't wait to be handphoneless
to be totally disconnected......
Sunday, March 01, 2009
start all over again
united play spurs tonight
league cup final
fergie is set to field his fledglings, since they got the team there in the first place
die hard fan as i am, mu will definitely win, whether or not Harry rested his men at the cost of getting kicked out of the UEFA cup.
that's how bad some of em want to beat the best, or maybe it was just a costly error in underestimation.
it's that time of year when it's hot and dry as hell, and when the rain comes and wash everything away in the evening, we are left with chilly nights.
there is no hunger, but we eat
there is no pain, but we fear
there is just nothing left to do anymore that excites our overstimulated minds and bodies
slaves of redundancy.....i want to appreciate things on a micro level
gone are the days of dominating the world and proving to everyone that their a bunch of idiots,
i'd rather read the most controversial political drama in the papers and start laughing like it's a sitcom, because it doesn't get funnier than cows and cars.
i mean, we are all going to be dead broke really soon, if not already, so like it or not, whether we hate each other, we still got to live in the same places and areas and we have to trust that we'll continue to preserve our way of lives for the good of all.
but nope, it's so much easier to hate, it's easier to destroy, to accuse
try making a car, it's probably easier and more fun to destroy it.
or what about a beautiful statue, or painting
what about a country? are we willing to sacrifice like our forefathers in harsher times or do we flee to wherever it's easier.
do we continue to complain without wanting to take the effort to make things better
nah, what am i talking about, this is our world, we just sit on our ass and let things pass us by, let's wait for something or someone else to bail us out from all our misery and mistakes
lets do absolutely nothing at all
league cup final
fergie is set to field his fledglings, since they got the team there in the first place
die hard fan as i am, mu will definitely win, whether or not Harry rested his men at the cost of getting kicked out of the UEFA cup.
that's how bad some of em want to beat the best, or maybe it was just a costly error in underestimation.
it's that time of year when it's hot and dry as hell, and when the rain comes and wash everything away in the evening, we are left with chilly nights.
there is no hunger, but we eat
there is no pain, but we fear
there is just nothing left to do anymore that excites our overstimulated minds and bodies
slaves of redundancy.....i want to appreciate things on a micro level
gone are the days of dominating the world and proving to everyone that their a bunch of idiots,
i'd rather read the most controversial political drama in the papers and start laughing like it's a sitcom, because it doesn't get funnier than cows and cars.
i mean, we are all going to be dead broke really soon, if not already, so like it or not, whether we hate each other, we still got to live in the same places and areas and we have to trust that we'll continue to preserve our way of lives for the good of all.
but nope, it's so much easier to hate, it's easier to destroy, to accuse
try making a car, it's probably easier and more fun to destroy it.
or what about a beautiful statue, or painting
what about a country? are we willing to sacrifice like our forefathers in harsher times or do we flee to wherever it's easier.
do we continue to complain without wanting to take the effort to make things better
nah, what am i talking about, this is our world, we just sit on our ass and let things pass us by, let's wait for something or someone else to bail us out from all our misery and mistakes
lets do absolutely nothing at all
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
it never ends
Manchester united just got through to the semifinals of the league cup after beating derby 3-1 (i think) in the reply after coming off a terrible 1 nil defeat in the first leg.
united are top of the table with a game in hand, they recently beat chelsea and bolton, Ronaldo won the FIFA poy award and will most probably leave in the summer that;s if manchester wins everything, and they probably will, league cup, bpl, fa cup....but something tells me, winning the UCL twice in a row might be a bridge too far.
and all that footie update was just because i've been looking back at my previous posts and noticed i always had to talk about footie at the start of the year, making my half season predictions, which i;m proud to say always comes true.
Obama gets sworn in, tried to wake up to watch it live on CNN but was struggling, and it didn't seem like an inspired speech anyway, ain't no JFK stuff, just plain honesty that this year is gonna be rough and tough.
the last time the year of the ox came around we suffered an economy crisis too, nobody knows how long this one will drag, but it'll certainly be another new test for economist and normal people alike to start evolving.
i'm not sure whether i've become the man i wanted to be, or whether all my ideals have gone down the drain.......but somehow i still can live with myself and i know there are others out there who have hell to live with everyday.......
therefore i give praise, to who needs it, deserves it, strives for it.
we shall prevail
united are top of the table with a game in hand, they recently beat chelsea and bolton, Ronaldo won the FIFA poy award and will most probably leave in the summer that;s if manchester wins everything, and they probably will, league cup, bpl, fa cup....but something tells me, winning the UCL twice in a row might be a bridge too far.
and all that footie update was just because i've been looking back at my previous posts and noticed i always had to talk about footie at the start of the year, making my half season predictions, which i;m proud to say always comes true.
Obama gets sworn in, tried to wake up to watch it live on CNN but was struggling, and it didn't seem like an inspired speech anyway, ain't no JFK stuff, just plain honesty that this year is gonna be rough and tough.
the last time the year of the ox came around we suffered an economy crisis too, nobody knows how long this one will drag, but it'll certainly be another new test for economist and normal people alike to start evolving.
i'm not sure whether i've become the man i wanted to be, or whether all my ideals have gone down the drain.......but somehow i still can live with myself and i know there are others out there who have hell to live with everyday.......
therefore i give praise, to who needs it, deserves it, strives for it.
we shall prevail
Monday, January 19, 2009
what a Difference a day makes
back on leave for cny. .1st day. Woke up. Went for a run. Spied on girlfriend. Changed spoiled telephone. Bought rare washing machine filter. Bought 4d. Ate chicken rice. Got all birdshit from car washed. Talked to apartment management. Collected pass card. Washed all the dishes from last night. Played winning eleven. Lost in semi. Got hair cut and shave. Now getting tatoo while blogging wit hp.
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